Hey Tina,
I think you're doing a great job. I can really relate to what you say about your weight affecting whether you want to go out and be seen by people, etc. My boyfriend is also very active and into extreme sports--skateboarding, snowboarding, etc., so sometimes it's hard for me because I don't feel like I have the energy to do something or I don't want people to judge my body, but at the same time I want to because I don't want to let my boyfriend down or have him think I'm lazy. What I've found is that the sooner you stop caring about what people think and GET OUT THERE and walk around, do stuff, etc., the sooner you will start losing weight, and the sooner you'll start feeling better about yourself. You can't just give up on doing things because you're overweight. I also find that the more I force myself to get out there and be seen and do things, the more it drives me to want to lose weight so that with time I will feel even better about myself and really WANT to do physical things. When you stay at home to avoid having people see your body, etc., it gives you more opportunity to KEEP eating, sitting on the couch, etc...and in the end that only makes you more unhappy, you know what I mean? Anyway, just wanted to throw in my two cents. I used to deal with the same things, but I've forced myself to change my lifestyle--the way I eat, the amount of exercise I do, etc., because in the end I know that losing weight will make me feel better about myself and my body, and that overeating and staying at home will only contribute to making me feel more miserable. Just imagine how nice it will be to be slim and want to go out with your husband and do fun things again! Let that be your motivation. Good luck and keep us posted!! 
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