[Josephine]

O.k. - So I woke up and I'm in this body that I am not proud to call my own. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I know I don't have great genetics. ( I'm 100% German and could lift a car if I wanted.) But I didn't want to turn out like this. Life is too short for me to be embarrased by the shell I am living in! I hate having to dress " strategically" so that I hide my fat ass and come up with every reason in the book to not go to the beach or a pool in the summer time. Guess it's time to change! Life's not over right?
A journay of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
I have to remember that and keep my eye on the goal.
I started phentremine today. ( After trying exercise and diet for 6 months and not getting where I wanted.) I have tried it before with good results. I bought A-173 and haven't a clue if my 159$ was well spent. Guess we'll see, even if it's 159$ worth of placebo effect I'll take it!

I weigh 175 ( down from 180 ) and I have a goal of 145. ( I was 214lbs - 13 years ago but kept it off until 3 years ago when my back went out.) I am 5'11 and very athletic but I have a terribly slow metabolism. I eat well except for when I PMS then I seem to struggle. I love being supportive to other people and never have a problem with my friends when they have gained weight - I never see them any different but I am hardest on myself and I just want to shed this weight and get proud of myself again.

Thanks for listening! I need to babble! Does anyone know how I can make one of those vvirtual models?
I will send pics when I get this all set up!

TO ALL OF THOSE ON THIS SAME JOURNEY: WE CAN AND WILL DO THIS!