[Jaylee]

Okay, here it goes:

I am coming here for advice because I really don't know where else to go. Please try not to judge me, even though I probably sound like an idiot to all of you. I am kind of struggling with an eating disorder. I haven't gotten help for it b/c I am afraid a counselor will laugh at me and think I am too fat to have an eating disorder. My mom almost died from anorexia/buliema when I was a little girl. She was in a inpatient program for over a year. She was only 66 pounds when she was admitted. I have horrible memories of that and I don't want to turn into my mother. Perhaps that is why I think I am too fat to have an official eating disorder. I weigh 110 pounds, no where near my mom's weight when she was sick.
I do realize how twisted I sound, but to me, I sound perfectly logical. Please bear with me.
I eat very little and sometimes I do make myself vomit, although it's been almost 3 weeks since the last time I made myself throw up. I eat between 200-500 calories a day, depending on the day. When I eat over 600 calories, that is when I make myself vomit. I mostly try to fill myself up on diet soda throughout the day.
Now, here comes the hard part:
I have very easy access to phentermine, in fact, I have some in my purse right now. I am very, very, very tempted to take it. But I am worried about the side effects it could have on a person who is not "overweight" and not eating properly. I am scared of possibly killing myself. I have three young boys, ages 7, 4, and 18 months. I don't want to jepordize my health anymore. I don't want to fall into the same trap and disease that my mother did. She didn't get admitted into a hospital until she was 35 years old. Very rare for someone with an eating disorder. Her disorder didn't start until she was near 30.
I guess what I am asking is if some of you could kind of scare me a bit, but be honest about it. Tell me how dangerous it is to take this drug while not being "overweight." I can't even describe how hard the temptation is and I very well might give in. But if I have a reason to be scared it can hurt me, then maybe I won't.
If you have gotten this far, thanks for listening. I know I need help, but honestly, I am not ready to yet. I just need someone to try to talk me out of taking this drug.
Thank you so much.

[ALWAYS24]

I am certainly no professional however I have worked in the healthcare field. You are DEFINITELY NOT too fat !!!. Depending on your height and body structure you may already be underweight.
I do believe that an eating disorder may be hereditary, but am not for sure. I believe that you should flush the pills that you have, think of those 3 beautiful children that you have and call to make an appt. with a counselor right away. You seem like a nice and honest person and nice looking already at your weight, I am sure. Think before you leap !!!
Good Luck..I am sure that you will make the right choice...keep in touch ! :grin:

[MANDEEZ]

jaylee this sounds like you need help now you are so lucky to be thin and have 3 children , what started this? how old are you and where you? please private message me and iw ill try and help you

[tammyrenee]

J i am 30 i weigh 136 i was very large before , i did that a little before and i thank god i didnt do it often and that i was able to stop without help. I know counslers and they will NOT say anything derogatory to you about it./They are there to help you . The problem is not going to be that your body is not overweight the problem is going to be when you purge your putting strain on your heart and lots of people die from that alone but the phen speeds your heart up so when your on the phen (close to speed) and you purge your going to overload your heart and very well have a heart attack. I have three kids and i have struggled so much with weight i was 230 at one time and i hate that i have such a problem with vanity but i do and i cant help it but there are other ways to deal with it.Believe me i know if i can go from 230 to 130 without doing that so can you. FLUSH THE PILLS no pills no temptation and take a good look at the awesome beings that you brought into this world and see they need you to teach and guide them through life.Good luck and god bless

[bubby1]

I take it for the energy.I have 3 also I've used diet aides to drop the weight from being pregnant and yes I stopped everytime I was pregnant They say its addictive I really don't think so I think we are addicted to the way it makes us look and it gives us the umph to do what needs to be done My middle child has down syndrome He is not violent but has so much energy He stays awake till wee hours and he is up at the brink of dawn he climbs window cells,bookshelf(I have it nailed to the wall)Climbs in the washer because he is fascinated with water,has me on the run 24-7.Its not that I don't watch him He waits for the perfect moment I'll be changing my little one and he is on the run.I turn my back he spills a bottle of dish soap.He sneaks out the back door I chase him,with my other son in hand and my daughter behind.I love him so much He is always so happy I REFUSE TO medicate him because I want him to be him....NOT zombie like,ya know.I've taken phendimetrazine for years my last child was a shocker I still got my period thought I had appendicitis and her I'm 5 months pregnant,I was concerned because Of the phendimetrazine.Had kidneys heart liver etc all checked Everything was fine thanks to the fine people upstairs.Wyatts is fine and dandy too.I give myself a little energy and the side effect for me was dropping 100 lbs.Buddy the middle child is11 and weigh

[bubby1]

Sorry had to go before.But anyway the energizer kid is goin strong at 95lbs.Yes I still do carry him some time Pulled my neck 3times have chronic back pain.Anyway thats why I take it .AS FOR THE VOMITTING,Please see YOUR HEALTHCARE DOCTOR.Not a shrink.My sister told me this the other day there is room for error so please bear with me.Scientists have recently discovered a gene in every bulimia sufferer It causes some sort of chemical imbalances in the brain that MAKES Bulimia sufferers Vomit.They don't do it cause they want to,not to be in control.IT IS NOT A MENTAL ILLNESS AS previously thought.It has nothing to do with your "head"and diet pills and weight.Thats why bulimia sufferers had such a high incidence of relapse in the past it was once thought to be physcological Now its being thought of as a MEDICAL CONDITION.Please speak to your doctor Because it is INHERITED THIS GENE.And your children might have it too.It is beyond your ,your mothers control.It has nothing to do with that.Its not for me to say but Please don't take the pills till you get this tackled.I cannot tell you what to do.Information is the best weapon.As for the heart danger with phentermine.That was REDUX It had nothing to do with phentermine.Phentermine has been around for more than 40 years.If incidence was that prominent it would have been recalled long ago.