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drugged?(slightly long post ahead) maybe amped is the right word. my insides are buzzing. It is like the hum of a loud generator. I smoke pot to offset this during my down times. Thusly I spend alot of time practicing deep breathing techniques and introspection to keep my self calm and collected. Sometimes, though, my words and actions are not really me. My insides are buzzing and I focus on controling that feeling and I find myself talking to people a little differently, or reacting to something differently. Just an observation on my part. I also find it fascinating how the little pill can change the attractiveness of certain foods to me. I used to eat bread fairly frequently because my roommate works at a bread company and brings home exotic loaves. The other day She was whipping out some delicous sounding new breads and I walked right by. Normally, I would at least see what she had and partake later, but I no longer desire bread(among many other things). I wish that I could permanently change that aspect of my psyche/physiology.
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