I know how you feel nomo. I wish there was something otc, too. It would be alot easier. Unfortunately, atleast for me-it's all crap. To be honest, you may as well shell out the money for the phen and lose the weight, rather than contiue to waste WAY more than that (like I have, lol) over time trying all that otc stuff and still not have anything to show for it.
I live in the middle of the desert, and the only doc here doesn't believe in
diet pills. I'm in the process of locating a doc in Phoenix or Tucson-which means ATLEAST a 7 hour round trip drive....so I also have to find one that doesn't require too frequent visits to keep me on the meds. I can't afford to just pick a doctor and try-but I've used phen before and know it works well for me.
I'm a stay at home mom, so I know the sitch about getting a sitter, too.
Most of the time I feel lucky to be able to stay home with my kids. Not everybody has that option. But it does have it's own set of reasons that make it hard to lose weight. Including the close proximity to the comfort of the fridge all day

, and how easy it is to get too comfortable-not want to go through the trouble of leaving the house, and feeling very blah about dealing with the world outside. It's hard for any woman to keep a healthy self esteem-but when you are constantly covered in someone else's bodily fluids or the mac and cheese someone smushed into your hair, and you can't get rid of the Barney-esque theme songs stuck in your head-it's nearly impossible

WHen you are programmed to be the caretaker 24/7-it's also hard to remember how important it is to take time to give your self priority as well, and do things just for YOU.
But it IS all worth it in the end. I have pcos, and I know that I'm lucky to maintain my weight. I'm not going to lose a single pound without medical help. I don't care what I have to do, if it makes me healthier and happier, then it's well worth the journey, the inconvenience, and the money.
It's not that phen is the ultimate answer-there ARE people out there who say it didn't work for them-although it's alot less than the people who say that about any OTC stuff. Have you ever taken it before?