[NeedtoLose]

I have only been on Phen for 2 days now.

Here is my story.

Four years ago I had lost 45 pounds and I was down to 200. I was well on my way to feeling great about myself. Then I got sick. I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I was put on prednisone and later a couple of the MS drugs. I developed an allergy to the MS drugs and went to see a specialist. Imagine my surprise (after living with MS for 3 years) when the doctor told me that he needed to retest me.

It turns out I was misdiagnosed by 2 previous doctors. I actually had a B12 vitamin deficiency and Crohn's disease. Now that I am being treated I am doing great. It looks like I am going to make a full recovery.

But I let myself go over those 3-4 years. I gave up on myself. Now I want to get my life back. I am hoping that I can change my body and my life.

I just had neck surgery in November to replace a protruding disk, so I have to limit some of my movements. But after all that I have been through, I know that I should be able to lose weight! It is time for me to stop limiting myself. It is time for me to feel good about myself again!

I starting dieting and exercising in January and I have lost 27 pounds doing that. Now that I have started Phen I hope I will be able to get the weight off quicker and get to a weight where exercise will be less difficult.

In the last 2 days on Phen, I have eaten about 1/3 as much as I normally would have. My body is not hungry, but I am still eating small meals to keep my metabolism going. THe problem is that my head is telling me something different than my body. I find that while I am not physically hungry...mentally or emotionally I still want food.

Food has been a comfort to me in the past. I am struggling with how to get my head to the same place as my body. I have to find a way to stop my emotional eating.

I am happy to have you all on this journey with me!

[Cyn]

Thanks so much for sharing your story! It sounds like you have been thru alot. I can relate totally to wanting to eat even though you arent hungry. I guess for me it is just out of habit--food was everything to me--if I went to town I bought a candybar to eat on the way home, I did alot of eating for emotional reasons and boredom~ so easy to polish off a bag of peanut M&M's before you even realize it! Oh and by bag I mean 1/2 pounder! Those single sized ones would never do! It is still a struggle for me everyday--I was in the kitchen getting some ice and saw some frozen cookie dough and actually got one out and started to eat it-I stopped myself-but it is just amazing how just seeing that made me grab it-I wasnt hungry in the least-but if I hadnt stopped myself I would have eaten the entire box. Usually now when I get the urge to munch I try to find something to do--read, check in here, anything to get my mind over the food! Hopefully it wont always be a struggle for us!
Great job on your success so far! Looks like you are well on your way!

[NeedtoLose]

THanks for the reply cyn!

I was unable to post last night so this is my Thursday post.

Things are going well on the Phen. Not much problem sleeping except I have to get up several times a night to go to the bathroom. All that water I am drinking!

I haven't lost any more. Should I be seeing a loss daily? I am trying to sty off of the scale but failing miserably.

[Cyn]

I have a love hate relationship with my scale. It is so hard not to get on it everyday isnt it? Somedays I would get on more than once a day --just to check! lol!! I finally quit doing that because on the days I didnt see results or if it looked like I had gained back a pound I would start giving up and doubting myself. Now I dont ever weigh--I havent in a while. Instead I am judging my progress by how I feel. I will weigh again but the numbers dont control me anymore.
Sorry you arent getting much sleep. I am not taking phen but when I did the lack of sleep drove me crazy!! Tosssing and turning in bed is the pits!!

[NeedtoLose]

Today went well. I am hungrier than I was the first couple of days on Phen, but still alot less than I was before Phen.

I got alot of walking in today. It is really warm out but I still took my 2 dogs out for a walk. By the time I brought them home they we pooped out (literally)! One of my dogs will lay on the ground when he is ready to go home. It is like he is telling me "Ok, I have had enough of this! LOL

I looked like this when I got home... [smilie=love sick.g:

[NeedtoLose]

I am down 4.4 pounds since I started Phen 4 days ago! =D>

It is working. I am still looking at the scale every day which is why it seems to be moving so slow. I know I need to stay away from the scale, but have been unable to do so yet. :smt120

I got up 3 times again last night to go to the bathroom though. It is really affecting my sleep. But if that is the price I have to pay then I am willing to do it. :smt026

I was able to get a lot of walking in yesterday which is why I think I went down another pound. So I am going to make sure I get a bunch in today too. My dogs are happy little guys. I take them on walks much more often now so they are benefiting from all of this too.

I am having trouble getting my husband motivated though. I know it is not my job to get him to exercise. I always ask him if he wants to go. He never does. I used to make him go anyhow. :???: I am not going to do that anymore. I decided that I will still ask, but if he does not want to I will take the dogs for company. His laziness is not going to deter me from losing weight! \/

I am getting more of my appetite back than I had the first few days on Phen. I am still no where near as hungry as I used to be. I am also trying not to eat anything after 8pm. Last night I was watching TV and decided I would have some airpopped popcorn. I looked at the time and it was 9:30pm. I asked myself..."Are you really hungry?" I wasn't so. It was just because I was sitting in front of the TV. So I did not eat it. That is a small personal victory for me.

[NeedtoLose]

Jan 3, 2005 - 273
June 7, 2005 - 248.6 Started Phen.
June 8, 2005 - 245.4
June 11, 2005 - 244.2
June 12, 2005 - 243.6

I lost a little more today. It really seems like the days that I exercise I weigh less the next day. That is major motivation for me to get off my butt! My dogs are loving going for a walk every day too!

I am averaging a pound a day of weight loss. That is GREAT! It keeps me motivated.

Last night I was really craving a cheat! I wanted pizza, but I was good and made a salad with shrimp and chicken. It was good. I did not eat 3 meals yesterday and I think that through me off track. It is harder for me to stay on track during the weekends. I have so much more time on my hands. When I get bored I start to think about eating. I am using the board to keep me busy (replying to posts and asking questions.) It helps because the people here have the same feelings that I do.

Have a great day! :grin:

[Cyn]

A pound a day is great! I also use the boards to get me out of the mindset that I need to eat. That is why I post so much! Plus it helps remind me why I am doing this and gives me motivation to do well. Keep up the good work Needtolose! You are on your way!!