Things can only get better from here

**zoey** · 09-16-2005, 04:18 PM

Okay, I truly hate this time of the month. This mornig I stepped on the scale and it read 2 pounds heavier. I'm not really worried about it, but it's frustrating to see even if you do have the explanation for it. I should have known better than to even look at this point. What was I thinking. Well, John will be home this afternoon, so I have got to get myself focused so I don't mess up like I did last time. Monday he's going to see about a local job. If he gets it then he will be home daily. This could be good or bad. I want him home so I don't have to worry about him out there on the road, but after 4 years of him being gone for 2 weeks at a time I'm not sure how we are going to adjust to being together EVERY day!! :shock:

**maymay** · 09-18-2005, 06:59 AM

I'm sure you will figure it out. Yeah I started tuesday my dr prescribed bc pills so my cramps aren't that bad anymore. Exercise is supposed to help with cramps, did you go for a walk or anything, that usually helps me. I used to have a waterbed and in the winter time I had the heat turned all the way up, it would feel so good on my stomach when I had cramps. I read somewhere that most women can gain 5 - 10 pounds on their period. Last week I gained 1 pound and this week I lost 2. Some months I gain and some months I lose, it's weird. Atleast it was only a 2 pound gain and not more. It is frustrating though. It's weird becuase I didn't feel like I had last anything last week and I kind of felt like I had gained, so I'm glad I lost this week. Good luck to you.

**zoey** · 09-19-2005, 12:03 AM

Weight change usually only varies a couple of pounds for me and it usually ends up the same a few days later, so I'm not too concerned.

**zoey** · 09-19-2005, 09:46 PM

Well, I finally got over the 20 pounds lost mark. It's my first mile marker. If I count 1 mile for every 20 pounds that means I've only got 5 and 1/2 miles left to go. Makes it sound like less. Trying to lose 20 pounds just seems easier than trying to lose 130. Now I am on my second mile. Hopefully it will be as good a trip as the first mile was. Right now, I'm trying to plan how I will be good during our vacation trip to Shreveport. Walking shouldn't be a problem, because they've got alot of great places to go see along the Red River and I will be fishing too. Food is going to be an issue. Anybody know how fattening gator meat is? Hubby says I have to try it. Well, I guess it won't kill me.

**zoey** · 09-20-2005, 03:06 AM

I spent the afternoon cleaning out my closet and all the boxes and bags of "saved" clothes. I divided what fits now and doesn't and then divided up the doesn't stuff into spring summer winter fall. Some things I think I will fit when the right season comes along, but most of it I hope will be too big. The winter stuff that fits now, I bagged up to send to Goodwill because I am determined that by the time it gets cold they won't fit. I tried on my "first goal jeans" that I have hanging on my wall. I was able to zip them up but I would only be able to wear them if I wasn't interested in moving or breathing :shock: I was hoping to be able to wear them for the Louisiana trip, but since that's only 2 weeks away, I don't think it's gonna happen. Oh well, it will happen eventually and that's what is important.

**zoey** · 09-20-2005, 08:31 PM

The past few days my activity level has just been way too low. Too much time sitting here on the computer I guess. My goal for this week is to make sure I do my hour workout and my walk every day. I have developed a habit of doing one or the other. Not enough!!!! I also checked back over my eating for the past week and I think I'm actually not eating enough. Never thought I'd hear myself say that! :shock: Any way, I printed out a page that has a space for me to write down each meal and snack. Allowed myself 3 meals and 2 snacks Also, has a place to monitor my water because I know I'm not drinking enough water. Coffee drinking has slowly worked it's way back up. Gotta work on that too. Still haven't been able to kick the cigarettes either. Doing better though. Down to about 5 or 6 a day instead of a pack or more. I'm taking it the same way I am the weight loss. One day at a time. Some days I smoke more, some days I go most of the day without even thinking about it. I'll get there. I know I will.

**zoey** · 09-21-2005, 05:57 AM

Tomorrow morning I've got to start doing alot of work outside. I've got to move around the horse trailer and utility trailer just in case the storm does come here. Because of wind direction, if it blows I'll end up with a 3000 pound horse trailer in bed with me. My bed is just not big enough for both of us. I also have to make plans to move John's motorcycle because the shed it's in won't stand up to the high winds. Probably move it to my neighbors workshop. Don't know what all else. I'll make a list in the morning and I've got until Saturday to be prepared. Hopefully the preperations will be for nothing but I'm not taking any chances. Well, if nothing else, at least I know I'm gonna get plenty of excercise over the next few day.

**zoey** · 09-22-2005, 06:17 AM

Thank God John's coming home. As things have gotten worse, I was really starting to get scared. I'll feel alot better when he's here and I don't have to sit through this alone. Hey I weighed myself this morning(I know it's not Sunday) and my scale said 239.5!!! Oh my God!!!! I was too scared to try it again, so I'll wait until Sunday to get the official weight. I'm so excited. I told John tonight that as soon as I break the 200 mark I expect him to give me $200 dollars to buy new clothes. I was surprised. He just said, sounds good to me. Wow!