Things can only get better from here

**zoey** · 09-08-2005, 03:55 AM

Well, hubby didn't leave until about 2 hours ago. Now I can get myself back on track. I know I can't just blow it all off whenever he's home. Especially since he's looking for a local job so he can stay home. I'm going to use the next week to make plans for how to deal with keeping myself on track while he's home. When he comes off the road it will be easier because I won't feel the need to spend all my time with him. When you're only together 4 days a month you try to make the most of it, even if that means just sitting on the couch together watching movies.

**zoey** · 09-09-2005, 02:48 AM

Today was better. I kept track of my food and activity much better. Of course there wasn't alot of activity. I was on the internet most of the day taking care of everyone elses business. And lots of my own. My youngest daughter(15) officially moved into a Christian Childrens home this week. She is scheduled to live there for the next 4 years. In a way, it's hard because part of me feels like I have abandoned her, but deep down I know that this is best for her. Her anger is so out of control when she is here that I am scared of her and she has said that she is scared that she will hurt me if she is here. She may be only 15 but she is 7inches taller than me and outweighs me by about 30 pounds!! In June we had an argument that ended with her being arrested for attacking me with a butcher knife. I know that she doesn't really want to hurt me, but she is completely out of control. She had a choice of spending the next 3 years in jail or going to this program for 4 years and having a real chance. They are going to provide real help for her that I can't. I actually feel better now than I have since all this started back in 1999. Now that I know that she is in good hands, I can feel better about caring for myself. I just have to keep praying that she will accept this opportunity to help herself.

**magenta** · 09-09-2005, 06:13 AM

Hey zoey,hows things,been real busy lately,havent had time to go on line.Wow your daughter sounds like she needs help.Its not a hormonal imbalance is it?That time of the month can do a lot of bad things to a girl.
I am so sorry that your daughter is like that,to be scared of your own daughter is so sad.
I hope things work out for you and your daughter.How is your dieting going?Still on track and doing exercise?
I have havent been to the gym for a week!I got this HUGE cold sore on my lip,zorvirax cream[what I normally use]made it worse and swelled it up to mega HUGE.
My chin and cheek was swollen,numb in patches,and full on painful in other patches!I had chicken pox when I was 29,so it made me suseptable to shingles later on.So thats what I have,shingles,headaches,tiredness,full on pain in my lip,chin and lower cheek!
Going to bed early every night,no gym or exercise,havent been eating right,but not pigging out either!Write some more later!Bye.

**zoey** · 09-09-2005, 06:25 PM

The pat week sucked because of other people being here I didn't lose any weight. Gained one pound but it's gone now. I'm back on track. Oh good news. Hubby has finally broken down and admitted that he needs to lose the weight and has asked for my help. The pains in his back and legs have gotten so bad he can't stand it anymore. He's going to have to have back surgery (damaged disk) but they won't even plan it until he loses at least 150 lb. I am so glad he has finally come around. I spend every day in fear of him dying. I am so happy now, I can't stop crying!

**zoey** · 09-10-2005, 02:34 AM

Ok, today I did my first ever cardio kickboxing workout. It was actually an hour long workout 30 minutes kickboxing, 30 minutes martial arts, but I barely survived thru the kickboxing part. I made up for the other 30 minutes sort of. The hill on my street that I didn't want to tackle, I did. Walked for 30 minutes, 1.25 miles. I know that 2.5 miles per hour isn't alot but it is for me. My plan is to do that walk for the next week, then increase my speed to 3 miles per hour. The next landmark point for me to walk to is 2 miles. I plan to be at 2 mile walk at 3 miles per hour withing the next 3 weeks. I can't join Curves until the 2nd week of October, so I'm doing exercise programs on the Fit Channel. The only problem is their schedule varies and some days there really aren't any actual exercise programs to do. My daughter gave me her Tae Bo tape. It's the original one. I think I will try it out tomorrow. Now I am hot and sweaty, so I'm going to take a shower and relax for a little while. Weigh in on Sunday so I hope I see some progress for the past few days.

***Ian*** · 09-10-2005, 02:50 AM

Kickboxing? Wow Zoey! I know you probably didn't feel you perfected
every movement, but that doesn't matter. You just did that. That's incredible.
Great job!

**zoey** · 09-10-2005, 02:57 AM

Not even close :eek: I felt more like the revenge of the nerds! Luckily it's an excercise program on TV so nobody had to see me except me. I did set up mirrors so I can watch what I'm doing. Little trick I learned way back when I was a dance teacher!

**magenta** · 09-10-2005, 09:53 AM

Hi zoey,every second tuesday I was doing tai Bo class.We started out on the number one class and are up to 4.I really like it,similar to boxing just using your legs too!I need to work on my balance,the kicks make me un-stable on my legs,in boxing being strong on your legs is important.
I wouldnt use a kick to defend myself in a fight,too easy to be knocked over and punched.
I think you would really need to know how to use it,and be very fast to use it as a defence!Good on you for doing it,its a lot of fun and empowering! 8)