[nickdsgrl]

I currently weigh 133 lbs. My goal weight is to be around 105-110. I would really just like to be comfortable in my own skin. I'm not sure if losing weight will help me accomplish this, but it's worth a shot. I have been struggling with my weight all my life. My mom and sister both have had the gastric bypass surgery. My other sister is waiting to get the surgery as well. So as you can see I come from an over weight family.
I have lost 72 lbs since Jan of 2005. I actually lost more but I have regained some. So today is a new day. I'm starting fresh. I would like to be at my goal this summer. So that is 23-28 lbs I would need to lose in the next 5 months or so. Very realistic I think.
I would love to change how I think about food. To actually realize that food is fuel for the body and not an anti depressant. I plan on eating healthier and sticking with it. I want it to be a permanent change for me. I also plan on going to the gym as soon as I get over the fear of working out around other people. I need to work on that. Yes, I think people are looking at me, the fat sweaty cow.
I really like this site, it has a lot of great information so I have come here for my motivation, cause I don't get it from my husband. I think he just makes it worse. He is supportive some times but other times he just kills more of my self esteem. Right now he is seeing a Dr about his violence, so hopefully things will get better around here. I know he has problems cause he's in the military and he just takes it out on me. It's very stressfull on him. So anyways, hopefully this site will give me the motivation and support that I need.
I think my goal is realistic and I plan on starting today. So I am going to be positive and say this summer I will be at my goal weight. I wil not let anything get in my way.

[soccermom]

I am so glad to see someone here that i can compare to. I too have a lot of self esteem issues and not feeling well in my own skin. You must keep your focus! Instead of eating the "comfort food", exercise. I find that sometimes I get bored and move toward food, so now I have more energy to want to exercise and not raid the fridge. Good Luck to you, I know you can do it! :-)

P.S. I hope everything works out for you and your husband.

[Mommyof2]

Wow! 72 pounds lost over the last year! That's awesome! You should be very proud of yourself for that!
I too have struggled with weight issues for most of my life and have battled with the losses and the gains many times over. So I understand your your thoughts. I love food. Its always been a vice for me. Sad, happy, angry or bored...no better time to eat then when you have emotions.
Now after having my second child I am finally ready to do this once and for all! I have never wanted it so bad. And for thhe first time in my life...I'm doing it for me. If I cared about what others thought of how I look while I'm working out, my fat butt would still be on the couch eating what ever I could get my hands on. I've only lost 21 pounds to date in a three month period, but I feel better. My eating habits have changed and my 164 pound body is working out 3-5 days per week.
You're on the right track! Go to that gym! Work it! This is about YOU, not anyone else. Just go there and get on your way to that goal weight! And remember that you are going to the gym to get healthy. You'll do great!
Happy losing!

[nickdsgrl]

I know I know I really need to get to the gym. I was planning on buying a treadmill but my husband wanted a pool table so we bought that instead. I'll get over it though. Yesterday didn't go as planned. I didn't eat very healthy. Actually I had Sonic. My husband was gone all day so that left me at the house with no car or money. So he just went and got something to eat after his dr appointment. I'm just full of excuses huh?
Today is off to a better start though. I think I'll take a walk up to the store to get some food since Nick left me some money today. Today will be a great day, I hope anyways. I'm having a craving for some Malibu Rum...so bad so bad. I'll fight off the temptation though. Alcohol is just full of calories that I don't need.
Mommyof2....21 lbs is great. Are you doing anything like counting calories? Are you doing cardio or weight training?
Soccermom...thank you, it is nice to know that others are going through the same. I think if I had better self esteem I wouldn't feel the need to keep losing weight. But then again you think if I lose 20 more I'll be happy with myself. Does it ever stop?

[Mommyof2]

You're right, today is a new day. And it sounds like you have good intentions for your day. Walking is a good thing.
I have been following a Weight Watchers type diet, but mostly I just watch what I put in my mouth. I don't go back for seconds and I don't keep alot of junk in the house to tempt me. Although that can be hard with kids...but they don't need it either. And more than anything I'm drinking LOTS of water. I gave up my 3-4 sodas a day and now drink nothing but water (about 100oz).
As far as my exercise I do cardio and strength training. I usually spend 40-45 minutes, 3-5 times per week, on the elliptical and 3+ days doing strength training.
I've decided to make a lifestyle change...for good. I don't want to be fat and I don't want my kids to have a fat Mom.
You can do this!!! Does your husband support you?
Best of luck with this!! It's a hard road, but if I can do it...I think anyone could!!!

[nickdsgrl]

Well yesterday went a lot better. I ended the night out with a small salad that I didn't even finish. Me and my husband got into a fight last night, a really bad one. If you count throwing something and getting really mad every time I talk bad about myself, then yes he supports me. He is stressing me out so bad I just wanna go eat my entire kitchen. Why can't he just be nice to me. Anyways, today is looking good also. I have had a Peanut butter sandwich today on low calorie bread. Tonight I plan on cooking chicken and veggies for me.
I stopped drinking soda about a year ago, and I try to stick with water and juice. Sometimes I break down and have to have my coffee and tea to get that caffeine.
Thank you, I believe I can do it, I just need to stay focused and right now it's been kinda hard to do that since my marriage is falling apart.

[NolezGirl]

I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through tough marital times (((hugs))). Just remember to take care you yourself because no one else will do it for you.

Good luck with everything. Good job on the healthy eating also!

[kimberpc]

Good Luck To You!!
Congrats to you on your big weight loss already... that's awesome!!!
Just treat each day as a new day and if you make a booboo one day you can do better the next :o)