Hell or high water! I'm gonna do this!

**Josephine** · 02-18-2006, 03:49 PM

O.k. - So I woke up and I'm in this body that I am not proud to call my own. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I know I don't have great genetics. ( I'm 100% German and could lift a car if I wanted.) But I didn't want to turn out like this. Life is too short for me to be embarrased by the shell I am living in! I hate having to dress " strategically" so that I hide my fat ass and come up with every reason in the book to not go to the beach or a pool in the summer time. Guess it's time to change! Life's not over right?
A journay of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
I have to remember that and keep my eye on the goal.
I started phentremine today. ( After trying exercise and diet for 6 months and not getting where I wanted.) I have tried it before with good results. I bought A-173 and haven't a clue if my 159$ was well spent. Guess we'll see, even if it's 159$ worth of placebo effect I'll take it!

I weigh 175 ( down from 180 ) and I have a goal of 145. ( I was 214lbs - 13 years ago but kept it off until 3 years ago when my back went out.) I am 5'11 and very athletic but I have a terribly slow metabolism. I eat well except for when I PMS then I seem to struggle. I love being supportive to other people and never have a problem with my friends when they have gained weight - I never see them any different but I am hardest on myself and I just want to shed this weight and get proud of myself again.

Thanks for listening! I need to babble! Does anyone know how I can make one of those vvirtual models?
I will send pics when I get this all set up!

TO ALL OF THOSE ON THIS SAME JOURNEY: WE CAN AND WILL DO THIS!

**Josephine** · 02-18-2006, 04:11 PM

( Hope I did this ticker thingy right...???

**NolezGirl** · 02-18-2006, 06:46 PM

Hey Josephine! Welcome!!! I started Phen right before I PMSed and it made a world of difference. I'm tempted to keep it around forever to use it when I'm in that mode.

www.myvirtualmodel.com is a good site for virtual models.

Your ticker looks great! You did it right. You can post it in your signature by clicking on profile on the top of the page. That way it'll always post.

I look forward to hearing more about you!

**Josephine** · 02-18-2006, 07:44 PM

:-D Hey Jill - Thanks for the advice! I posted the ticker in my signature. ( Learn something new everyday!) I just got back from a great workout - I took the phen this morning for the first time and I swear it really got me buzzing - ( I hope this isn't bad for me - like addicting or anything. I really don't even like to take ibuprofen...the price we'll pay to look how we want.) I
I ran five miles and did the eliptical for 15 minutes but then had to get going. Tomorrow I'll really kick some ass - I have more time to workout. I wasn't hungry for breakfast and didn't eat until 1:30 when I ate oatmeal with flaxseed and raisens. I'll have to watch my caloric intake so it doesn't go to low and I really screw up my already slow metabolism and then when I go off phen I'll gain everything back.
Blah, Blah, anyway...thanks again and have a great day!

**Josephine** · 02-19-2006, 02:36 PM

O.K. so what is up with this increased sex drive? I already have a pretty strong libido but my poor husband. 3 x's yesterday and I could've come back for more if we didn't have to go out last night. Good thing he's in good shape. Guess it's burning calories right? But I feel like a friken nympho freak! Nice side effect. Is this phen like womens Viagra or what?
O.k. - sorry but I had to share...hopefully someone can relate? :eek:

**Josephine** · 02-19-2006, 10:40 PM

K - I figured out the picture thingy thanks to Jill's help pointing out the obvious! ( Guess i need that sometimes ) Still haven't figured out how to put one in my profile so it shows up on my signatue but hey - I'm making progress.

This is my husband and I in Colorado last summer on Vacation. ( I ussually don't wear a cowboy hat but we just got done horseback riding.)
That's it for now!

**msmonica** · 02-20-2006, 02:02 AM

:grin: Hi Joephine
Welcome to the forum.
You know I have the same issue. My sex drive went up also. My poor husband did't know what was going on I think he is still in shock. Sometimes I just think to myself well i'll leave him alone. (for now). Need to get him good vitamins. You and your hubbie are such a good looking couple. Look forward to reading your post
good luck and congradulations on the 5 lb loss
monica

**Josephine** · 02-20-2006, 03:40 PM

:grin: Hi Monica - Thanks for the reply and the compliment. To tell you the truth I have felt like I am not good enough for my husband since I have gained weight. He is a personal trainer, in awesome shape and a total sweet heart and wonderful husband and I just feel like I am bad advertising for him an like he deserves better.
Last night my father-in-law went into the hospital with a heart attack scare. He was o.k. I had gotten to bed at 10:30pm and was up at 1:00a.m. when we got the call. Thank goodness he's o.k. but boy am I tired today. I went to the gym at 5:00 a.m. anyway ( Thanks to Jill's St. Patty's challenge.) I worked out hard and was happy I went. I am glad to be on phen so I won't get the lack of sleep munchies. I'll sleep good tonight though!
It's funny how we can be supportive of our friends when they are struggling but beat the crap out of ourselves. i.e. my oldest sister called me on Saunday bummed that she wasn't seeing results quick enough from her workouts and dieting. I told her to focus on the good stuff she had and not the bad and to believe in herself and know this will happen. BUt I caught myself this morning complaining about my fat butt and thighs instead of being thankful to God that I have a healthy body even if it's not where I want it to be.
O.K. - Stepping down off of my soap box! Have a beatiful day! One day at a time right?