[angry_little_goth_girl]

Hi! I am 25 and I have been battling my weight for my entire life. I am only 5ft tall, and my Native American heritage has blessed me with plenty of junk in the trunk as well as those famous "birthing hips". I have gone through spells of gaining and losing weight, anywhere from 10-40 lbs at a time so I keep a wardrobe ranging from sizes 4-12.

I discovered Adipex 37.5mg 3 years ago when I competed in beauty pageants, and decided to add it to my already strict 7 day workout regimine. I followed a very strict 1200 calorie a day diet and went from a size 10/12 to a 4/6 in about 3 months.

Unfortunately a devastating split from my fiance' spurred a hellatious drinking binge, and my eating habits went straight to hell. I went from 120 lbs in August of 2004 to 166 lbs by April of 2005. I finally got more Phen 37.5's at the end of January 2006 (at 152 lbs), but I haven't been exercising and following my diet as strict as I did in the past. I "cheat" on the weekends (no pills and eat what I want) but I generally stay between 1200-1500 calories of veggies, fruit, and fish/poultry a day Monday-Thursday, and take 1/2 a pill around noon--I haven't had the motivation/energy to go to the gym though!!!!!! I've gotten down to 135lbs but I want to be more strict about my diet and exercise habits like I was before.

It's a new month and I'm trying to start out right by going to the gym and eating properly today, but I need encouragement!!!!

[angry_little_goth_girl]

Today I am 137 pounds :x (gained 2lbs!)

Waist=30 inches

Pills?:1/2 of a 37.5mg at noon today/Stacker 2 at 7:30pm before workout (I have no energy and allergies are making it hard to breathe right now)

Food log:
SlimFast Optima Shake 190cals
Nutrigrain bar 140
Uncle Ben's chicken rice 230
Parmesan shrimp 140
total so far= 700 calories

Workout:

45 minutes on the treadmill @ 15 incline/3.5-4.0 speed (408 cal burned supposedly)
18 overhand/18 underhand reps tricep pulldowns@ 40lbs
36 reps horizontal press machine @ 50lbs
36 reps pec deck @ 60lbs

WAS GONNA DO MORE BUT THE "GYM NAZI" DECIDED TO CLOSE 10 MINUTES EARLY THUS KICKING ME OUT!!!!!

[Toya]

Sorry to hear about your break up w/ your fiance. But I am glad to hear that you are trying to make a change in your weight. It seems as though you already know the right steps to take to aid your weight loss.

Welcome to the board and thanks for sharing your story with us. The people on this board are very nice and will help in any way they can.

Good luck.

[dreamy039]

:smt039 Just wanted to say welcome to this site. Its hard to lose weight and keep it off but we are all here for the same thing. To Lose weight and to help each other. Drinking plenty of water will help get you started - portion control - and exercise.

On the taking stacker 2 i dont think it is very safe because about 4 yrs ago i tried it and it did help me lose weight it also after a few weeks . I got where i would get blurred vision really bad and felt really faint. Of course the heart racing thing that if you didnt workout you would feel it beating out of your chest. So please use CAUTION with stacker 2.
Ive been on phentermine for about 3 months and have lost about 20lbs.
It really works but you have to help it. Just remember that we are here
to help you get motivated. Keep up with your workouts and what you eat will help you. And Keep it posted on you journal... Hey Maybe you have some pants in your closet that you cant wear and you can put them to where to can see them and make it your goal to get into them...

I Started with a low workout and building up to what I needed is really what worked for me... I want to wish you lots of LUCK and if you want to talk im here.... Good Luck ... Dreamy :grin: :smt039

[angry_little_goth_girl]

It's nice to know that I finally have some support! I have 2 jobs where temptation always rears it's ugly head-morning donuts, office parties with cakes and junk food, not to mention my part time job is working in a restaurant. I don't have any support at home either since my boyfriend eats junk food (and refuses to change) and thinks I am being silly and vain by not eating certain foods or not eating late at night.

I have been an emotional overeater for my entire life. At 8 years old I weighed almost 130 pounds and as a young child I wore an adult woman's size 16-18. I went to a school with wealthy kids who were skinny and cute-we're talking girls who get nose jobs and boob jobs for their 16th birthday!! I was constantly insulted not only by kids at school, but even my own father referred to me as "fatass" (how touching).

The year I turned 19 I saw myself in a mirror at a store and was disgusted with the person I saw. I decided that I couldn't continue life as "the fat girl", so I became anorexic and starved myself to an unhealthy size 4. I became a sickly yo yo dieter-gaining and losing weight over the following years.

I got involved with beauty pageants when I was 21. For the first time in my life people were telling me that I was beautiful, so I became obsessed with my weight. I was very successful but I tortured and deprived myself to be what other people perceived as beautiful. I eventually started working with a personal trainer who taught me about proper nutrition and exercise, but I was still sometimes victim to crash dieting.

Just when everything was under control and I was a happy, healthy size, my fiance broke up with me and I just fell apart. I was never a drinker, but I started hanging out with people who partied alot so I drank excessively. I developed terrible eating habits to comfort my emotions and I was too perpetually hungover to even think about going to the gym.
I gained back most of the weight I struggled to lose, and now I'm in the process of doing it all over again.

I know exactly what I need to do to lose it and stay healthy, but it is difficult to start and stick with it. I've lost 17lbs and I'm doing a mediocre job of maintaining a decent weight, but the Dr. says I'm still more than 20 pounds overweight for my petite structure. I know that doesn't sound like alot for those of you who have alot more lbs to lose, but l've lost my motivation. I think of the workouts I used to do and the discipline I once had--I don't know how to find it now.

I'll do great for awhile, but sometimes when I get stressed out or upset I'll gorge myself. I'll eat an entire container of ice cream or a whole pizza--my worst habit is eating an entire bag of Reese's Pieces at once without hesitation!! I need someone to help me overcome these nasty habits.

[yesimln]

Hey, welcome to the site. We're glad to have you here! I have a lot more weight to lose than you but you know what? We all have our struggles. As long as you are approaching this from a healthy place (ie, not from a crazed eating disorder place!) you can count on my full support! Actually I have bullimia in my background as well so I know where a lot of this stuff comes from - or at least I relate for sure. So 20 pounds is a great goal - give yourself time to develop good habits that you can maintain over the long haul and I'm sure it'll stay off this time. Your workout sounds great - good for you for making time for weights and cardio!! Keep it up - and drink a big glass of water before giving in to temptation on Reeses Pieces or other no-no foods. BTW that old thing about putting what you're going to eat in a bowl (as opposed to from the bag or container or whatever) has worked for me too. Good luck and keep us posted on you! Ellen