[anewbeginning]

So, last night I decided that I am not really in that great of shape. I do not look overweight but I feel out of shape. You know that feeling when you just don't feel as though you are at your best. I had a dream last night that I was lonely. Am I lonely? I thought about this and sometimes I feel lonely like I live a lie, like I'm living my life to the fullest. I want to travel and sky dive, go mountains hiking in Washington State. I want to be free! I only want people who are positive around me and have a good vibe about them. I noticed one thing about these forums is that not one of you gals or guys are negative about yourself or about others and you guys are all about lifting each other up and I love that! If everyone else in the world was the same I'd be in heaven!! So, I wonder if maybe my purpose on earth is to show others that being negative and mean is not nice LOL but its not the solution to the problem to just whine and soak in your pity but to look for the light at the end of the road and figure out how to stay positive and remember that there is a higher up that can give you the solutions to get to the light. I'm so tired of being angry or jealous or just any of that negative stuff to myself and to others. I just want to be as happy as I can and at the same time try and lift up others in the process. We're all here for the ride; we might as well make it the best right?!?
My little revelation of the day. But anyway so I decided last night that I want to be in the best shape of my freakin' life, not just my life but my freakin' life!!! So while I am here on this long a** deployment I am going to bust my a** working out and eating right! I have no other choice, as GI Jane once said- "Failure is not an option." Hoorah!
So with all that said, I got up as usually and headed to the gym, I took my time while working out to think about things that were bothering me and as soon as I got off the elliptical I release whatever feelings I had and I let it go. I let it go from my mind, from my thoughts, my emotions, my muscles, my heart and most importantly my soul. I truly let it go. I can't even remember what it was that I was thinking about because I just zoned in to it and worked through it and now I have a fresh perspective and a new outlook on today! How awesome! Well, I am off to work but I will return to read your journals See ya!
Day 120 and counting...
Lisa

[anewbeginning]

I went to the gym yesterday twice. But I only did the elliptical for 30 minutes each time. I wanted to run but I have gotten so out of shape that I only lasted 7 minutes.... pretty sad. Yesterday, I was in this not talking mode for some reason. Everyone kept asking me was I ok and whats wrong and I would just say nothing just not in the mood to talk. It was a weird day but I'm sure we all have days like that. But I ate well yesterday, my supervisor warmed up a cookie in the microwave and it smelled so good I wanted to steal it from her but I was like no self-control!!!! I can do it!!! LOL... Lets see what else happened in my day...Oh, I ran into an old high school friend! I was going to get something to eat and he saw me and yelled my name, he was like Lisa! Lisa jefferson! It was funny... And it was so nice to see someone I knew! so, we email each other and said we will hang out soon on our days off. I came to work prepared for the long day! I have five pieces of fruit on my desk and some Kellogg's corn flakes just in case I get hungry later on before lunch. Last night the dinner sucked so I'll I ate was some soup and salad and pasta salad. It was a sad dinner LOL... I would get the grilled chicken but they always put butter on it. Well, I am running out of things to talk about so I'll go for now. ta ta for now...
Lisa

[susanpesek]

:rawrrrrr: GRRRRRRRRRRRR..go get 'um, Lisa!! You are on fire now! Once your determination sets in, you are wound up and WILL continue on, no matter how many hot cookies you smell. I am so proud of you!
Isn't your husband going to be EXCITED when you meet him as a thinner, buff-bodied female??

[anewbeginning]

Today started the Biggest loser contest here and my office decided to participate in the contest. I am excited because I have some support in the matter of getting in shape. I seems though that they will fall out of the contest just because today I saw most of them eating poorly so, I'm thinking right they arent going to get too fall if they keep that up. But I am sticking to my diet and staying strong. I decided to take Sunday's off from working out because I don't want to get bored with working out or be over worked. But I'm tired and readyt to go home and I'm waiting on others to get through with their work so I can leave which is a bummer! I hate that!!! Oh,well... Talk to you all later...
Lisa

[susanpesek]

Good for you, Lisa!!! CONTROL is the name of the game. We have heard it since we were little ones~moderation..moderation...It's a bit fun to finally know what is good for us. I think just this year I have had the time to THINK whether something was healthy for me or not. It used to be that I never thought about that until my tummy was full~:cool:

[tatiana40]

Lisa, listen to me. DO NOT JOIN THE CROWD! Stay away from fatty foods and relaxed attitude. Stay away from elastic waistbands, sleepy eyes, and heavy stomachs. You have so much going on for you. Food is not the answer to boredom. I suspect that you are pretty bored out there. Why don't you think about some hobby, new activity, free online classes, or just anything that would make you excited and busy? Create a system of rewards that are not food. Better yet, find somebody who is really determined to lose weight and ask him/her to be your weight loss and exercise buddy.
You are re-evaluating your attitude and your values now. Stay strong Lisa! You already are a beautiful, thoughtful young woman with a great potential that is unfolding through struggles and hard work.

When are you coming to the state of Washington? I have been hiking all over here for 5 years. Come and join me!
XXXXXX

[jasmyn]

Originally Posted by anewbeginning

So, last night I decided that I am not really in that great of shape. I do not look overweight but I feel out of shape. You know that feeling when you just don't feel as though you are at your best. I had a dream last night that I was lonely. Am I lonely? I thought about this and sometimes I feel lonely like I live a lie, like I'm living my life to the fullest. I want to travel and sky dive, go mountains hiking in Washington State. I want to be free! I only want people who are positive around me and have a good vibe about them. I noticed one thing about these forums is that not one of you gals or guys are negative about yourself or about others and you guys are all about lifting each other up and I love that! If everyone else in the world was the same I'd be in heaven!! So, I wonder if maybe my purpose on earth is to show others that being negative and mean is not nice LOL but its not the solution to the problem to just whine and soak in your pity but to look for the light at the end of the road and figure out how to stay positive and remember that there is a higher up that can give you the solutions to get to the light. I'm so tired of being angry or jealous or just any of that negative stuff to myself and to others. I just want to be as happy as I can and at the same time try and lift up others in the process. We're all here for the ride; we might as well make it the best right?!?
My little revelation of the day. But anyway so I decided last night that I want to be in the best shape of my freakin' life, not just my life but my freakin' life!!! So while I am here on this long a** deployment I am going to bust my a** working out and eating right! I have no other choice, as GI Jane once said- "Failure is not an option." Hoorah!
So with all that said, I got up as usually and headed to the gym, I took my time while working out to think about things that were bothering me and as soon as I got off the elliptical I release whatever feelings I had and I let it go. I let it go from my mind, from my thoughts, my emotions, my muscles, my heart and most importantly my soul. I truly let it go. I can't even remember what it was that I was thinking about because I just zoned in to it and worked through it and now I have a fresh perspective and a new outlook on today! How awesome! Well, I am off to work but I will return to read your journals See ya!
Day 120 and counting...
Lisa

Wow, Fantastic post, Lisa. I haven't dropped by your journal for quite some time. I love your positive attitude. Travel, sky dive, mountain climb. Those are your destiny! I don't see why you can't do all of that. I can identify with that. I would still love to sky dive, go scuba diving, climb mountains. I haven't done any of that either. Never really had anyone to go with that enjoyed that stuff. Maybe I should just go by myself But it is amazing how a workout can give us a fresh outlook on life. Physical exercise feels so much better than sitting around.
Great job!
Warm wishes,
Jasmyn

[anewbeginning]

Hey everyone!!! Thanks for the replies!!! I actually just went to the ABS class they have at the fitness center, here... It's a small little building but there was about ten people who went and my team mates went and we kick our own butts!!! It was great!!! I almost felt like I was in basic training all over again. but I didnt give in because I was thinking the only person who can lose the weight is me so I got to stay on it!!! But I need to get some zzz's, tomorrow's my day off from work!!!! yay!!! Talk to you all soon!!!
Lisa