[kimberpc]

Hey are those meals called "lean gourmet"? If so, I think those are really good!! I eat them a few times a week for lunch usually I agree with you on the heat... it's terribly hot outside these days.. ugh!

[susanpesek]

Hi, Jen! We are ALL glad you chose this site, Girlfriend! You will find genuine support and truly some sensational folks here.

Journaling really helps us stay accountable, a bit like a monthly weigh-in at Weight Watchers. All it requires is a little honesty and sincere effort and BAM! The weight starts coming off, chip by chip....

AND AWAY WE GO!!!

[osubabe22]

Kim- Yes, I just went to check and they are called lean gourmet.. they are cheap and good. I just wish they had more to pick from, but their selection is not bad. I try and stock up on those for my lunches, they are fast and easy for me to cook.. I mean heat up

Susan- Thanks, you are right I have found some wonderful support from this site and it's nice to have a place where I can be honest and not be made fun of or looked at weird. I NEVER tell people how much I weigh. The only people who really know is my older sister and my hubby. I hate saying how much I weigh... I want to get to a weight that i am comfortable with and can tell people w/o being ashamed.

Today has been an ok day for me. I feel kinda weird and don't feel like eating, but I don't think it's all from the phen tho. I don't want to say I'm depressed, but I guess I feel like my life is just on repeat and I do the same thing everyday. I get so bored staying at home all day with my son and lil bro. I get absolutly no adult interaction.. besides on here. I feel trapped in this house.. It's too hot to take the kids to the park or outside.. I'm broke so I can't really go anywhere.. When Matt gets off he is tired( which I understand) and doesn't want to go anywhere. I just want to get out of the house and go ANYWHERE and he justs wants to relax. I know he works hard all day and understand that he doesn't want to drive all over town. School starts back up on the 20th and I'm so not looking forward to that. I'm taking 4 online classes and I know they are going to kick my butt. My summer school just ended and I only have like a 3 week break b4 school starts again. I'm going to be so stressed out with school and taking care of the 2 kids all day. I have to manage everything during the day.. taking care of 2 kids and a dog.. cleaning.. cooking.. school... working out... running errands.. paying bills... and the list goes on and on. I know that's my "job", but it's a lot for one person to handle. Does anyone else feel like this??
I feel so lost right now.

on the upside, I have had tons of water today
I think I am going to go sweat my butt off and workout in the garage.. even tho it's like 100 outside.. maybe it will make me feel better...

[osubabe22]

Jazzy, thanks so much for your words of wisdom. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who is going thru this(or has gone thru it). I Love being a stay at mom and don't think I could ever put my son in daycare, but it just gets old.. ya know?It's not my son.. it's just being alone all day.. all the time. I used to have a gym membership and would go almost every afternoon with my son. Then I started watching my lil bro for my dad and could only go on Mondays( the only day I don't watch him) b/c they wouldn't watch him in the daycare since he wasn't my child. Well, then we moved in dec. about 20miles from the gym and I stopped going b/c gas was too expensive and it took too long to get there. So, we ended up canceling it about 2 months ago. I would love to get a new gym membership close to my new house, but we just can't afford it right now. Plus, we have workout equipment in my garage( and we just cleaned it sun. so I could use the stuff). I live in a neighborhood with mostly older couples and don't really know anyone who lives around me.

Ok, so in my last post I said I was going to go workout in the garage.. and I DID. yay me!! It's honestly my first real work out in about 2 or 3 months.. sad I know. It was so freakin hot outside, but I stuck it out for an hour on the stationary bike( where u sit down and your feet are in front of u) and burned about 350cals. I think I may have sweated off like 10lbs my tank top was soaked when I came in. It's so hott here in Oklahoma now, but it felt sooo good to work up a good sweat. I just listened to my ipod and read magazines and the time flew by. I told myself that I would just do 30 mins, but that came and went and by the time i knew it, I had been on there for an hour. I'm so proud of myself for actually doing it! I am going to try and workout everyday(m-f) for atleast an hour while the kids are napping. It's funny cuz the workout gave me a good feeling.. like happy and not so sad and depressed like I was earlier. I love that feeling!!
Well, I'm off to feed the kiddos a snack... later ya'll

[kimberpc]

Yes yes yes the lean gourmet ones are great and what a cheap deal huh?

Have you ever thought about looking for playgroups in your area? I know there are a few here in the town that I live in and they get together like once a week with the little kids....try looking on the yahoo groups!!

[osubabe22]

So today was my 2nd day of working out. I did an hour on the bike, 10 mins on the total gym, and 2 mins on the stair stepper.. I know, it's not a lot, but I had just gotten off the bike and my legs were killing me. I could barely stand anymore, but I forced myself to do 2 mins. I'm so proud of myself for working out again. It was super hott yet again today, but in a weird way I like it cuz it makes me sweat more and I feel like I'm working out harder. Plus it makes me drink a lot of water... which is hard for me to do. I have been really working on that tho.

As for food today: This morning my dad brought me a sausage biscuit from mcdonalds when he dropped my bro off and I didn't want to be rude and not eat it.. so I did. For lunch I had a grilled chicken snack wrap from mcdonalds and a sweat tea and I just had a slim fast snack bar. I Have been using this water jug I got from walmart that holds 72 oz of water. I have drank almost one full jug. It really helps me drink water thru out the day.

Ok so my hubby wants to go camping for labor day weekend with a couple that we know. Well, she is sooo skinny and tan and that worst part is, she had a baby is nov. her daughter is not even one yet and she is back to her normal weight.. well she got back there within the first month of having her! I hate people like that Anyway, I'm sure she is going to wear a bikini and show off her flat, no-stretch mark stomach.. while i'm in my tankini with the skirt bottoms and probably with my cover- up dress. I really want to go, but I am so not looking forward to feeling fat next to her.. So, I was thinking that I would kick it up a notch and try and lose as much as I can be4 then. I was thinking about getting up at 7:30 and riding my bike for 30 mins b4 my bro gets here. Then also doing an hour on it in the afternoon, plus a lil of the other equipment. Is that too much for one day? I mean I think of it like I just took a 30 min walk in the morning, right? I realllly want to be to atleast 190 by then. I know that 10 lbs will make a difference in the way I look. My belly won't bulge out as much...

Anyway, I guess I am going to go for now.

[kimberpc]

Woo hoo to you for working out That's alot of workout time... you did great!!! Please dont feel like you should compare yourself to that other woman.... you are two different people and both have great things about each of you I'm sure I had my first son and was in a bikini and down to my pre-pregnancy weight in 2 weeks... and that was gaining 24 pounds with him.... but not after my 2nd and 3rd child.... life isn't always that easy for us. lol Anyways... you do what you can to get that weight off and I'm sure you'll feel good about yourself knowing that you are a work in progress Good work sweetie!!!

Jazzy.... OMG too funny.. sweet tea is a southern thang... and yes that's Iced Tea that we call sweet tea I went to Pennsylvania one time for Christmas with a boyfriend and ordered sweet tea and they looked at me like I was stupid....

[osubabe22]

jazzy- Thanks.. Phen does help with working out. I'm not really comparing myself to her, I just know that next to her I'm gonna look like a blimp. She is like 5'2 and maybe 90lbs.. I'm 6'2 and 199 as of today. I already look big next to her b/c of my height.. but i'm not going to let that ruin my time. She may be skinnier, but atleast I have boobs I would much rather look like a girl than a stick... anyway, thanks for making me feel better. I am 4 sure motivated to do the best I can by that time and I am working my butt off. Ya the whole sweet tea thing.. it's iced tea that's sweet. McDonalds has it and it's pretty awesome. Do you guys not have sweet tea in NY or do you just not call it 'sweet tea'. If you call 'sweet tea' Iced tea, than what do you call non-sweet tea?

Kim-Thanks, It's not as much as You have done of that eliptical, but it's a start. You're right, I may not be as skinny as her.. but I have a lot more going on than she does. Not to be rude or anything. I'm just thankful to have a hubby that loves me know matter what size I am and thinks I'm the hottest girl ever..hehe. This is off the topic, but I remember in one of your posts you talked about getting breast augmintation(sp?) I was just wondering if you ever went thru with it.. or maybe I just missed that post.

Now for an update...
I wake up today and decided to weigh myself.. I have been stuck at 200 for like 2 or 3 days. Well, when I looked down it said 199!! Ok, so only a pound, but I was so freakin excited.. the scale finally moved down. It made me feel like the hard work I was doing was actually paying off. It made me workout even harder today. I did 70 mins on the bike, 10 mins on the total gym, 4 mins on the stair stepper, and 10 leg ups. I felt sooo good when I was done. I am going to talk my hubby either going for a bike ride or a walk tonite. He keeps telling me he feels like a lard ass. He's 6'4 and 210.. he's not fat at all.. he just has a lil tiny stomach roll. He even got a salad from Mcdonalds for lunch today.. I think I'm rubbing off on him. I keep telling him to workout with me after we put Teagan down for bed.. but he has yet to do it. I would love to get another short workout at nite.. when it's cooler outside. When I come in from working out my tank top and shorts are completly soaked! It looks like I took a shower with my clothes on.
As for food I had half of a sausage biscuit( i'm gonna have to tell my dad to stop buying one for me every morning) for breakfast, a ham and cheese lean pocket for lunch, and I have drank about 60 oz of water. I plan on doing good at dinner time too.
Well, I am off to change my son.. man, I can't wait til he's potty trained