[boxermom]

I love your new pics!! You look great girl

[yesimln]

WTG - I can't wait to see what the official number is on Tuesday!! Ellen

[sweet4jay]

Hey girl!
Where's your update today?
I know I'm crazy, but I sure do miss you when you're not around!

I guess I'm gonna lay down for a bit & try to catch a few . Still trying to recover from that bug yesterday. BLEH! It was a baaaaaaaaad one!!!

[9reasons]

Hi Miss Chic Chic or Dances with Daffodils!!!! Can't let that one die just yet!!!

I'M BACK!!!!! UP TO SPEED!!!!!!! Yeah!

I opened my email this morning and I had 35 messages!! Woah, and that was on the weekend!

I am just starting to get up to speed with everything... you know I would love to hear you talk.... with that southern drawl... I'll bet that is pretty amazing, not to you perhaps, but to very English sounding me it would be!!!

How is the miss melting martini going weight wise, you are doing so good, you will be in onderland very, very soon girl! Maybe you should take those little puppies out more often, they are soooooo cute

My poor little girl gets flea allergy dermatitis One of the reasons I am up so early is because the poor baby was scratching again, woke me up, I felt so bad for her. When we were in LA I got some Benadryl (they don't have that type of thing here) you know the one you guys give your dogs? I followed the dose on the internet and it does not really do anything for her so this morning she was sooo bad I doubled it and if nothing else she is now fast asleep. I am going to have to get more steroids from the vet. She is a pure bred Cairn Terrier. She is supposed to have long fur but we keep it short so her itching is more manageable. I even got her a bath for humans in desperation yesterday, just an oatmeal based chemical free bath additive that you soak their skin in, relieves itching apparently. Do any of your little ones have anything like that chickadee? What could you suggest?

Anyway I am going to make another cup of tea and check some more journals... sooooooooooo nice to have the internet back up to speed, you have no idea!!!!!!!

[msmartini]

Hi Ladies!!

Ellen, thanks for stopping by. It's good to see you, been wondering where you've been!

Boxermom, thank you SOOO much!!

Ms. Echo, I do mine by formulas found around the net. Basically, it's done by your measurements and weight. I will get them done someday... I'm curious to see how much the two numbers differ!

Ms. Joy, it's not silly at all! I miss YOU when you're not around too!! Nice to have you up and feeling better!!

Chicky-G , I do have one puppy that has itchy allergies... but honestly nothing I tried seem to work. That said, he's much better now that I take him to a groomer every 6 weeks. I don't know what she uses on him, but I'll ask next time we're there! Happy to see your internet back up to speed!! I missed having you around as well!!

Update in the next post...

[9reasons]

Miss Martini,
I have photos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well in my thread anyway!!!!!!!!!!


I have our dog booked in tomorrow, I guess she'll have to go back on steriods! It's the only thing that seems to work. You would laugh though, she is completely sleepy on that Benadryl!!! Still at least she is not scratching herself half to death!

Anyway go look at the photos, I am so happy!!!!

[cmomof2kids]

Hey lady! How was your day??? I know your waiting for your hubby to get home!!!!! Did you get to work out at all today? I tell you Im beat. that power walking did me in.

Well have a good day tomorrow girly!!! Talk to you soon!!! BTW thanks for your encouragement!

[msmartini]

Okay, you all should know by now that I'm a scale-a-holic! I can't help it, it's just me!!

Friday, I got up and of course weighed and saw for the very first time in probably nearly 16 years... 2-0-2!! I nearly fell off the blasted thing!! I did my best at ignoring what it said all day. Then hopped back on that night and saw 203. I was thrilled!!!! That meant that maybe the 202 that morning was NOT a fluke!! So this morning... back on... 202.1... off... back on... 202.1 hmmm, off... back on... 202.1. Now, according to my college diploma, accounting is my thing. So 3 tries should be good enough to call it a done deal... yeah, I don't think so!! So I repeat this process a few more times and never once did my new best friend falter!! I know it's not Tuesday but Friday used to be my weigh in day... and it was the same yesterday so...

I WEIGH 202.1!!!!!!!!! I have OFFICIALLY lost 30 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!

I flipped! I went bonkers!! Pulled everything out of my closets... I mean EVERYTHING!!!!! The clothes I took to Jamaica just 4 short weeks ago are now BIG! There are only like 10 shirts in my closet... the other 40 are on the floor! I no longer have any formal dresses... too BIG!! I just saw my inches lost for the month of October and the number 13 didn't mean that much to me... but now???? OMG!!!!!!

I was elated to say the least! Until... I got to the back of my closet and pulled out our Boy Scout Leader shirts... This shirt and I have a love/hate relationship. I smile when I see them because it brings back wonderful memories of watching my son grow and being lucky enough to experience those times with him. I hate that shirt because it was a men's xlarge... I HAD to tuck it in and that was at my heaviest weight ever... 250 pounds.

I should have left them both hanging there, untouched. But I couldn't do it. I pulled mine down and put it on... I could never button the last two buttons... ever... tears began to fall when the shirt swallowed me. Eddie's shirt was hanging next to mine... a men's large. Now, I've had to wear his before and needless to say, 3 buttons on the bottom have never been buttoned when I wore this shirt... they all buttoned... not only did they button, but the shirt was NOT pulling on me anywhere! And that's when I lost it... I curled up on the floor in the fetal position for about 30 minutes crying my eyes out. I was so proud and yet, so damn angry! I was disgusted with myself for being severely obese for so long... I was angry for wasting so much of my children's lives being their 'fat' mom...

Finally, I jumped up and that's when every single plus sized item I own came out of hiding!! I tried on the first 10 or so, then just started pitching everything that said women's, plus, 16, 18, 1X, 2X... I COVERED my bedroom floor!!!!

When I ran out of clothes of mine to go through, I peeked into handsome hubby's closet. I have not weighed less than this wonderful man since before I became pg with Brittney... over 20 years ago! I couldn't wear his shirts... forget his jeans! I grabbed a shirt... life is good! Then a pair of his jeans... 36's... hmm... what the heck! THEY FIT!!!! I ran around the house crying my eyes out dressed in my husbands clothes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, now that you all know that I am mental... Let me say this. I still have a LONG way to go to get to goal. It's just THIS number holds such meaning to me. I have wondered for years where the line was, going from severely obese to just obese... or overweight... I do believe I've just crossed it...

Brittney just got here so I'm going to run. Know that I'm still crying and I did NOT proof this post... of if there are misspellings or improper grammar... I'll fix them later!!

Thank you... each and every one of you. I'm not even half way there but please know that there was no way I ever would have gotten this far without you. I love you guys!!