The Melting Ms. Martini

**cmomof2kids** · 11-04-2007, 02:19 AM

this Post Was So Amazing!!!!!!!!! Anissa I Cried With You!!! You Are Such An Inspiration Girl. I Imagined Everything You Were Doing While I Read This. I Was Very Shocked When You Said That Tears Came To Your Eyes... But After Reading What You Wrote Next... Then I Realized What You Meant. MY That Is So Great. Im So Proud For You Hun. I Just Want You To Know That I Cried Too Reading This. I See Your Fervency. Im So Proud For You. You Worked So Hard To Get Where You Are. It Feels So Good To Be Happy Again Huh?

**9reasons** · 11-04-2007, 02:21 AM

Oh my little chikadee

I can just see you huddled on the floor in the fetal position with those tears coming down that little face... many times for many years for many different reasons... and now... tears of joy and guess what.... another part of you that has been missing for all those years...just came back, like another part of the jig saw has appeared... not long to go really, compared to 20 years of weighing more than Eddie... not long at all and you will be that whole, complete little girl again!

I wish you many tears of joy my dear... because they are the ones that heal... and you are on your way HOME!!!

Congratulations... Woohoo!!!

Join me in the Phentramin support group!

**sweet4jay** · 11-04-2007, 03:16 AM

OMG girl! I was just AMAZED reading that post! And I too was picturing EVERYTHING you were doing! WOW is all I can say! You are just SUCH an inspiration girl! HOW on earth do you do it?!?!

You are inspiring me to kick my butt in gear & get w/ this program here!!!

All I can say is - YOU ROCK! WOO-HOO!!!

I really don't know what else to say!!! Just keep it up! You're my new hero!

**sahmof4** · 11-04-2007, 04:42 AM

Hi I haven't talked to you in a little while so I read the last couple of pages. Wow your post was very intense and emotional. All I can say is you have come a very long way.

I also almost cried reading your post.

You are deffinitely a motivation for me after reading what you had to say. I wish you nothing but the best. I am very excited and happy for you. You keep it up and you will be done in no time.

Talk to you soon.

c.c.

**susanpesek** · 11-04-2007, 02:46 PM

Martini, YOU DID IT!! GIRL!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! By Thanksgiving you will have left the 200's behind. WAY BEHIND!!!
Hello to the same little gal you were years ago!!

**msmartini** · 11-04-2007, 02:48 PM

Good morning ladies!!

Cmom, Ms. Gillian, Ms. Joy and C.C., THANK YOU!!

Thanks for being excited for me!! It really, really means so much to me! The thing is, it's all of YOU that inspire me! We've all come together for the very same reason and knowing there are others trying to accomplish the same goals, makes it so much easier!

I'm not sorry for being so emotional... but I am thankful that I can show those emotions and not have you ladies roll your eyes thinking "that chick has lost her mind!!". Maybe I have... but that's just me!

I read your post before I went to bed Gillian. And it got me to thinking. This journey is SO much more than just losing weight. To me, it's like an onion... and with each pound gone and each milestone(such as yesterday's), it's like peeling an onion. Layer by layer, with each layer representing something. Some event, some conversation, some action that sent me to where I ended up. Gaining weight isn't just something that happens. It's not just overeating... it's not just being too lazy or tired to exercise. It happens for a reason. For me, it was a veil. Something to hide behind. It was a way to hurt myself so that no one else could be the deliverer of that hurt. I wasn't allowing anyone to hurt me more than I could hurt myself. So when I peel back each layer it reveals the emotion that I was trying to supress at the time. Trying to ignore... There were many of those emotions to deal with yesterday.

So with all that said... I'm saying a toast to those emotions, to those intital 30 pounds and the plus sized department! "I thank you for helping me through the times when I needed you the most... but I'm a MUCH stronger person today than I was so many years ago and your presence is no longer needed. I no longer have the desire to hide, it's time for me to be me! Farewell!!"

And that's that... no more crying(today), no more deep emotional revelations(today)... on to more hard physical work, more meal planning and SHOPPING!!

I'm actually looking forward to it!

2 more big milestones(onederland and 160) and then I can reevaluate where I'm heading.

I'm hoping you all will stick by me as the journey continues...

**msmartini** · 11-04-2007, 02:51 PM

Hi Susan!! And thank you!! You are such an inspiration to me and everyone here! You are our leader and confidant... thank you for setting such a wonderful example and helping us down our own paths at our own pace!

You're a true gem!!!!

**sahmof4** · 11-04-2007, 05:43 PM

You so have the right attitude. I get so much more motivation just reading your journal. You deffinitely should not feel bad about being emotional. We have all gotten that way one time or the other it is good to let it out or it could eat you up inside you know. We are all here for you no matter what no strings attached........ Keep being that good attitude and kind person you are. You are so on your way.

Take it easy and talk to you soon. c.c.