[echowits]

There you are

Great article!

I was thinking about you yesterday and was wondering if you were down about that 1 (less than 1) little pound. You really need to print out a copy of your post from . . . okay I went back and quoted it - post #424. Anytime you are down (and potentially tempted to eat something bad), read this and remember how great you felt, what a high you had. You are right there!

Originally Posted by msmartini

I WEIGH 202.1!!!!!!!!! I have OFFICIALLY lost 30 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!

I flipped! I went bonkers!! Pulled everything out of my closets... I mean EVERYTHING!!!!! The clothes I took to Jamaica just 4 short weeks ago are now BIG! There are only like 10 shirts in my closet... the other 40 are on the floor! I no longer have any formal dresses... too BIG!! I just saw my inches lost for the month of October and the number 13 didn't mean that much to me... but now???? OMG!!!!!!

I was elated to say the least! Until... I got to the back of my closet and pulled out our Boy Scout Leader shirts... This shirt and I have a love/hate relationship. I smile when I see them because it brings back wonderful memories of watching my son grow and being lucky enough to experience those times with him. I hate that shirt because it was a men's xlarge... I HAD to tuck it in and that was at my heaviest weight ever... 250 pounds.

I should have left them both hanging there, untouched. But I couldn't do it. I pulled mine down and put it on... I could never button the last two buttons... ever... tears began to fall when the shirt swallowed me. Eddie's shirt was hanging next to mine... a men's large. Now, I've had to wear his before and needless to say, 3 buttons on the bottom have never been buttoned when I wore this shirt... they all buttoned... not only did they button, but the shirt was NOT pulling on me anywhere! And that's when I lost it... I curled up on the floor in the fetal position for about 30 minutes crying my eyes out. I was so proud and yet, so damn angry! I was disgusted with myself for being severely obese for so long... I was angry for wasting so much of my children's lives being their 'fat' mom...

Finally, I jumped up and that's when every single plus sized item I own came out of hiding!! I tried on the first 10 or so, then just started pitching everything that said women's, plus, 16, 18, 1X, 2X... I COVERED my bedroom floor!!!!

When I ran out of clothes of mine to go through, I peeked into handsome hubby's closet. I have not weighed less than this wonderful man since before I became pg with Brittney... over 20 years ago! I couldn't wear his shirts... forget his jeans! I grabbed a shirt... life is good! Then a pair of his jeans... 36's... hmm... what the heck! THEY FIT!!!! I ran around the house crying my eyes out dressed in my husbands clothes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, now that you all know that I am mental... Let me say this. I still have a LONG way to go to get to goal. It's just THIS number holds such meaning to me. I have wondered for years where the line was, going from severely obese to just obese... or overweight... I do believe I've just crossed it...

[cmomof2kids]

Hey girly!

Hate to hear about your internet problems. I know those can be a pain the butt. Well I hope your doing good. How was your trip with your friends and family? Hopefully good. Well guess I will try to talk to you later when you are able to post again!!!! Im plugging along like you told me lol. Your doing great girl!!!!

[9reasons]

Trust miss martini to be so positive and full of sparkle even when things are not going according to plan! That is the reason she is going to reach her goals!

And Sheila..... you should have been a life coach girl!!! You rock at motivating!!!

And a great article miss czj... that frog certainly knew what to do! Tenacity wins every single time, no exception.

Has anyone heard of a reality board or a goal board? Steve and I have one each right in front of our noses on the wall in the office! Just quickly it is a cork board up on the wall. In the middle of this cork board is a list of my short term goals, or things I want within a year. They are not all weight loss goals, some of them are to do with the business and some are financial, some are to do with travel and study, etc. However they are up there and they get read every single day! In the bottom right hand corner are a list of my long term goals, or anything else that I want which might take longer than a year to happen.

Around the rest of the board, are images, cut from magazines, the internet, etc. which are there to stimulate and enhance those goals visually. Our unconscious sees everything in pictures, so if you want a size 10 body, cut out pictures of someone who is a size 10 and get it up there, even better cut out a picture of your head and put it on the body! I am serious! If you want a certain car, write it down and put a photo of the car up there and put a little picture of you in the drivers window!!! Make sure you put dates in the goals, be very specific with what you want. You can put affirmations on the board, in fact anything that keeps you motivated.

It works for us... I often have to re-type my long term goals as they become short term goals and short term goals as they are actualized. The best part is... you get to see your goals being reached one by one...

And from a motivational point of view "it is often the last key in the bunch that opens the door"!!! Just keep at it and never give up!

[msmartini]

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

Did ya miss me???

Well Embarq has sort of redeemed themselves... still waiting on the new modem but when calling to get the tracking number today I reached a girl who actually knew what she was doing!! She was able to get me running while connected to the modem. I'm not wireless...but I can at least WORK!!!

SO... here I am... back to bug all of you!!

Off to catch up on the happenings...

[9reasons]

Oh miss CZJ is back with us!!! Yeeeehaaaa!!!!!

Let the games begin.....

[sweet4jay]

Welcome back CZJ! Good to see ya!
I have been SO SO bad about posting on here lately. I guess I've just been finding soooo much else to do! I know - I'm bad! But I promise I'm not a traitor.

[9reasons]

So are we gonna get you back in here today???
I see, now everyone thinks you look like CZJ... you are swanning off to the shops looking for celebrity clothes!!?? Leaving us all alone.... sniff!

[sahmof4]

Hey Ms. Martini,

Glad to see you have your internet problems fixed. Man that would really suck to lose my internet. I'm so used to being on her and I would be so lost not getting my daily fix of phenforum. My husband has threatened to cut our internet off recently. Mostly for financial reasons since he is laid off work right now. He has managed to get a couple of side jobs recently. He works in construction and drywall he can pretty much do anything a jack of all traits. Well if he gets rid of it man looks like the library for me a couple of times a week at least. Anyways I've kinda not been on her alot recently myself. I need to try and limit myself since I can be on here for hours and hours before I even realize it. I hope you been having a awesome weekend. Talk to you soon. Bye, c.c.