[jlclnicho]

Hey everyone, well absolutely no excersize what so ever yesterday. It rained all day long. It is going to rain today some more, but it is not raining right now so I am going to try to get a jog in quick this morning before the water works start. Woke up with the mother of all bad headaches. So waiting for that to go away a little bit before I start jarring my body all around jogging Have a great day!

[jlclnicho]

Hey everyone, K so I did get a jog in yesterday. I ended up going shopping for a new swim suit cuz the one I have is way to big(like jump in the pool and come up with the top around your waist and the bottoms around your ankles to big) Anyway swim suit shopping.....BIG NO NO!!!!!!! The only place to get a swim suit in this freekin rinky dink town is wal-mart. I must have tried on 20 different swim suits. Hated every moment of it!!! None of them were modest enough for me....tits hangin out of every possible side there is. NEED A BREAST REDUCTION BAD!!!!! Think a sharp knife will do? Anyway so my hubby came with me to walmart, why I do not know? So finally I settled for a black and white tank that ties around the neck and black bottoms. I looked like a fu@%ing black and white milk cow!!!! But if I wanna take my kids swimming this year I gotta have a bathing suit. So I get all done and set out to find my husband some where in the store....shit got worse!!! I finally find him and he is talking to a friend of mine (whom I really do like) but am intimidated by her because she has this perfect body. Tall, long legs, and just skinny. built that way ya know. So here I am all pissed off and sad about the whole bathing suit experience and I run in to my hubby chattin with my friend with the perfect body....So I am trying so hard for mean and nasty things not to come outta my mouth. Bet she never had a bad swim suit experience in her entire life!!!! And that is exactly what I was thinking! And for some reason I wanted to bash my husband in the head and kick him in the ass a few times for it!!!!!!! Like it is his fault my swimsuit experience was awefull and my friends body was perfect. Anyway I am done with that can't vent on it anymore....getting pissed off again.

So been a bit depressed lately. Don't know why. Miss my mom. Been listening to some blues lately...ya know.....the kind that are so painfully satisfying.

OK raise your hand if this post has brought you down!!!:d ots: K I think everyone has got the point. Am I banned now?

Gonna try and at least be normal today.
Sorry for the "bring me down" post.

Hope you all have a great day!! And just a warning...If you go to try on swim suits today, make sure none of your hot friends are in the store!

[almostthere2010]

HUGS hun
we all have days like that
I am stressing b/c going back to the beach in 2 weeks for a few days MIL has the timeshare again and I am really feeling a bloated belly these days ugh
going to try and kick butt these next 2 weeks

[denvergirl]

Oh friend. Not a bit worried about the swimsuit vent. . .we have all been there (minus the hot friend), but hope you are doing o.k. about your mom. I can't imagine. Try to put away the painfully satisfying blues music and get out some great praise music and thank God for each and every thing you loved about her. . .and Him. Funny how expressing gratitude can change your whole perspective. Hang in there, I'm here for you if you need to talk.

[jlclnicho]

Well that just about turned on the water work because I know that you are absolutely right. But you know how sometimes you just wanna be left alone in your mysery even though you know that it doesn't have to be miserable. Crazy how the brain works. Well anyway my remotivation has fallen into a deep hole and I am still trying to pull it up....back up to 197. Today is another day.

[spice2621]

Hello there..just coming by to say hi and I hope all is well!

[lele0211]

Hang in there Jaimie i know how you are feeling i have been down that same roadL:( but denver's right try to think about the happy times you had with your mom, and remember if you need to vent we are all here for you.

[jlclnicho]

I thank all of you!! kinda weird how when you revert back to old habits, you stay away from the support system or people (my phen friends) who can help pull you through. Well I am up and at em this morning and hoping to accomplish alot.

Have a great day!